This fear keeps me from doing exercise. Top this with my love of food; my lack of a thyroid; my age and I'm what I call a fat fatty.
I have never been classified as thin. I've always been thick, padded...fat. Sometimes this fact gets me down. I had a lap band placed back in 2008. I lost about 40lbs and promptly got pregnant. The pregnancy wasn't planned but was very much wanted. After giving birth I gained some weight but I didn't gain up as high as I was. I never really lost any more weight with the lap band. I mean, I still could eat, all be it, more slowly. I was able to stay under my high weight for many years. This year, this past week, I am over my highest weight and I'm so saddened by it.
I want to lose weight but I'm afraid of the physical activity. I know that diet is a massive part and I'm trying to get that handled. I'm trying to find better outlets for myself. Food is a comfort. It's for celebration, happiness, or when I've had a bad day. I'm trying to change that mindset. I'm also trying to find gentle exercises to move my body while not damaging my back any further.
